Rant Before Work

There are a few things I know for certain. I know that I have recurring states of being. This is what I know:
1) I frequently have the wanderlust. Often I want to escape where I am- I need to physically remove myself from a place to find peace and readjust. Often this means I want to go to Santa Fe (if I am in Ithaca), some other random spot in the mountains, or some random spot on earth that I am intrigued by at the moment.
2) I hate buses. This is a given. They suck. They are uncomfortable. The people bug me. I lose things. I can’t get up to move around. Trains are my preferred form of transportation.
3) People piss me off. They just do. Sometimes they are okay, but a good chunk of the time I find them pitifully petty, dull, immature, etc.
4) I love children. They are the group of people that give me the most hope and also the largest group that loves me- ha- that explains a lot.
5) I don’t believe in love. (What I mean by this is deep down I do but I am just really bitter about it and don’t believe it will ever work for me even though I really hope it does- I just *sigh* don’t believe it will ever fully happen to me).
6) I often divide my world between the world and boys. I realize the stupidity of this and know (not just deep down but on the surface) that the world will always win out. Only if the two are compatible- if the boy is in love with the world as much as I am that anything could ever really work.
7) I am a moody person. I have mellowed out upon coming to college. Just ask my mother and siblings about how I resemble Anne of Green Gables.
8) I am a horrible pet and plant owner- I am a much better art owner. I have trouble caring for myself so how can I take time to repot a basil plant.
9) I love mountains. Some people adore the ocean, some feel at home in the city, I require the mountains.
10) I feel guilty on a regular basis. My counselor tried to help me with this. I have relapses, but not so bad.
11) There are things I have forgotten about myself but occasionally remember. Such as, I used to Irish dance, I was diagnosed with OCD, Depression, and anxiety, I have had many counselors- and tend to get along really well with other counselor/ex-counselor goers. i.e. Nate, like myself collects counselor cards.
12) I love my family to the utmost extreme.
13) I have regular moments of self hate.
14) I just want to pause life right now and take a breather.
15) The world is often the only thing that really keeps me going in a happy state.